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I got up at two thirty last night,,,bad f dream then I turned on the t.v. and was watching v.h.1 an saw a vidio that was to close to home,about my ex girl of ten years,to for real,,to,to,for real,click,oh,fu here we go,then that clicks to other things starts snowballing,like mom back in 1969,od, I find,,click,click,it 's pretty rare these days for me to still get floods,I'v never got any kind of anxiety attacks untill after I broke my neck at work,my whole carrear gone in a snap ten year apprentiship,gone,thousands of dollers in tools ,gone cant use cant drive,hands dont work cant play guitar anymore,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,so for twenty years they(the record execs) have been watching,my fan base bootleging for twenty years or more,,,,"but it's cool kevins a plumber makes a lot of money more than most people on t.v. (sometimes about six thousand a month),prevaling wage for a jorney man plumber is like a hundred an somting an hour,may be then it was sixty six an hour)he dosent need to be famous ,,he lives in the red woods in marin he has a beautifull girlfriend,,so shhhhhhh,,,,,I didnt even know I was famous till an africain americain women in san rafaell c.a. at boyd park sat behind me and said"you did it kevin,your famous guitar player,she said it a coupple times,then other people started telling me that,on the street that went on for like two years,me going"yea right!" I just didnt belive,then somtime when I was living in kings beach I realized it just is true I did it!!THATS A LONG FREAKEN ROAD A LIKE FIFTY YEAR BUSSINESS PLAN,and to have it WORK!rock star!!!!!,,,,
someone asked about my father charles o'connell(chuck) he's really cool I take after him a lot lot of coffie lot of pot him and moreen live in ventura with about fifty other cosins and relitivs of mine,my fathers side was always the sane side,a multimillion doller shirt manafatchuring co.which I we my brother and I grew up in learning the bussiness from young, thats the fasion industry,hes been married like seven times I think,thoes where the days I used to get brand new dirt bikes under the christmass tree,cocktail par4tie a live in maid that would clean my room and do my laundry,,Thelma,hellow out the somewhere and her son I can never remember his name,lunch and late parties with I.Magnum and a lot of other fassion people,my neibor across the street owned Motown records,I used to hang out with his son an smoke togeather,drink a beer or two,pretty cool I remember gold records on the walls,the jacksons lived seven blocks away,that was woodland hills c.a. near taft high,I decided right at five years old I want tyo make people happy and dance like tyhe people on t.v. I wana be a rock star!!!! so they had a lot of time to make me(me yea I am a real person with a heart) into a true icon,I was thinking back on some things david bowi said to me,a TRUE icon, I'm feeling really kinda bad today phycicly,surprised I made it here,now I gota walk home,,,,what would I do if I didnt have jennifr ther in mind and soul to get me through those moments thoes floods of mine are dangerous to me,especily if I'm alone,memories to make you snap!!!!,what a sweetheart she is always there,I'm a lucky man ya know to have luived through all that,how maney times have I met and saw the light,I stoped counting years ago,near death experiences, that time with my dad was nice ,,always and that was like three days a week or a week a month the rest of the time it was a pure living HELL!!beyond anything you cpould understand,,,yes hiding in the pots and pans cubords thats me dare devil,bashed in the face from my biker stepfather with his cast on"ha thought I couldnt get ya with a cast on hu?"I"LL always remember that,,,,I wont goint more because my mother is now reading thios and she ,,thank god ,,dosent remember much of it,but I was a kid sober and paying attention,,peace in everyone,it's a strong foundation,that wont ever go away,the record execs and stars are around me twentyfour seven,you may not see them but I do,"how maney c.ds have you sold kevin?""oh I dont know about thrundred and fifty out of my hand all hand sighned""did you know they burn ten to twenty thousand copies off every c.d. you sell?"wow,really<"do the math ,twenty dollers each you where getting?"yea" that conversation was years ago,now theres probably like a billion or two in the world the soldger said yes they find "back from somewhere c.d.s in Iraq all the time but without the sleaves,thousands of them,not counting twenty years of boot leging my playing,,,and leave me in the streets to die??? oh no!!!OH NO! I got friends movie star friends,rock star friends,congress men and women whom I have busted my ass building them a home,,,, so i'M JUST WAITING NOW,,I really think where gonna get that americain train,with comunity servis and job search programs there wating for the train to pull in,,,the whole wold needs a break from all this stress,,war,,,wepons defence,china,,ect,ect,ect,,it would be cool like an ingrained nanitinol gaurd from one end of the country to the other,"an I got my gray haired old dad driving my limozine",peace in everyone,starbucks only about ten min here in tahoe for about twentyfive peopkle to crowd in to see kevin,,uh oh time to go!!!!hollywoood probably not even a min. I'll be home soon venture!!where theres fame theres the valley,yas know....
