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I remember,boy I remember,,walking down the street here,to the coffie shop ,the sunshine the motercycals rumbeling by,,the san fernando vally in 1969,my step father, Dick,was my moms husband at the time,a stright up biker,not a nice one,well he ment well I sapose,"gota toughen you up boy"so we had a little house at that time and it was barbacue day of corse the barbacue is a cut in half steel barrell(seen the movie"Mask")like that,exactly like that,,,harleys pulling up on the lawn and bringin there old ladies(always nice to us,my brother and I)pinch your cheek,there old mans stuffen beer in the fridge,the gun laws where verry diferent back then,dicks got his harly striped apart all over the kiktchen and ther cleaning guns,and theres,"the rolling stones"blaring out "jumpin jack flash"when it came out then or recently,pot smoke filled every corner of the room,,,dick was all over my mom in her tiney halter top,,big junk yard dogs running around,talking about bring thoes kids to red rock canyon to teach em to ride a dirt bike,the firt time I was on a dirt bike I was eight years old at "Gormand"cant ride dirt bikes at "red rock canyon"any more,saved,santuary,baTS KAGAROO RATS,SNAKES TORTISES,ECT,ECT, I got bashed in the head by his cast once probably broke my nose,and he drove my mothers Corvair off a cliff,but jumped out the window in the nick of time,,,rats, I remember getting beaten for laughing about it,everyone was WASTED ALL THE TIME!!
my mother dosent remember(for good reason)I talked to her about it yesterday,when she came to viset me,neither dose my brother(lucky freaken me)I remember it ALL dick smashing beer bottels over my mothers head then draging her in to the bed room,,most of the time my brother and I where just in dumb shock,post tramtic,,,what the vetrens get same thing, to much,only I didnt get to wait till I turned eighteen, hippis,and couler and tie dyes and velvet posters and the serpent king and hedrix and bikers and rough sex and drugs and it was an insain asylum at home shell shock,,wham!,,
here comes a Kelly Clarkson one.want another one?
somtimes I become afraid to write,to bring everyone where I am,somtimes I bring myself to places I shouldnt be,no remedy,no remedy
my mother sees the problum and asked me if there was a way to get UNFAMOUS?we bolth laughed kinda A HEART BREAK LAUGH,NOT AMETHURES THERE IS wOODY gUTHRI
MY MOTHER AND i DISCUSS THE SUBJECT ALL THE TIME
see sees me sufering,she see my fame,it's obvious,my mother was a hipi,big time she knows aBOUT jIMMI hENDRIX AND jANIC jOPLIN AND jOHN lENNON SHES HIP YA KNOW,,SHE SEES HER SON AS THE NEXT jOHN lENNON,BUT poor,SHES SCARED FOR ME,TRYING TO HELP ME MAKE MORE CD.S,(SHES A MANICURIST,NOT RICH),BUT THATS NOT THE AWANSER AND SHE KNOWS IT AS MUCH AS i DO,BUT WE MAY AS WELL KEEP TRYING ,SHE KNOWS i'M IN LOVE WITH A MOVIE STAR ,,SHE KNOWS WHAT MUST COME WITH THAT,,SHES NOT DUMB,
"iS THERE Any way to get unfamous",done deal mom,it's forever,"I'm the one",,,she sees me trying to stay stoned,all the time stay stoned.
at least it's just pot shes thinking she definetly knows about herion,I can see it in her eyes as she drives away from my apartment,alone in that mottell room ,stoned,alone,she sees it all,always asking me "what if you get fame and not money?" and I just dont have the answer to that question,,she understands I'm enslaved,it's easy to see that I really have no free will,"thats O'connell"aloud in k-mart,she sees the problum,
my mother askes me all the time if all thoes dead people bother me,ya know the people that die for me,it's plain to see, my moms been there(watch chers,,"Mask"),,she knows about" gods warriers"and myrters,and I just tell her,,"WHY CARE?""THERES NOTHING i CAn do to prevent it",,she sees me have a bad day and she goes home and turns on the news and there it is"""the K line burned to the ground today",,my mother and I and my brother have lived through hell and I've been draged thru the fucn valley of everything,this better work out so my mom can finnaly retire FAT!!!!!.take this killers.
degress of happyness seperated by sunny days
debating what lives out there and what worlds to not be a part of
she weeps
I laugh and break another glass
a world away on the same day
degress of happyness seperated by sunny days
her ocean waves crash on a beach and my traffic rushes by at a break neck pace
she weeps to the sound
I laugh and slash and break another glass
a world away on the samwe day
degress of happyness seperated by sunny days.
took two attempts to get out the door this morning I'm not doing well,show how well I dont feel k-love,how long can these movie stars keep kevin alive?my mother wants to know
oh mom bought me a three hundred doller mattress,a real one,and fifty bucks in grocerys and a new hot plate and a crock pot and sheets,,,
Updated: Sunday, 19 April 2009 4:49 PM EDT
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