did any one watch "friends" this morning,I was just paying attention to the t.v. when jennifer was talking to monica,"I love you"floored me sweety,I've been diging for valadation from her/you sweet heart,this was one of the best mornings I've had in a long time cause of my attachment to you sweety!,I cant explain it people will get weird on me,,I have like fifty songs written about jennifer,but I dont share thoes ever,I think I shared one once,she has to go through them,,but heres one from recently

                                              "sweet heart"

shes in my heart deciding whats good for blue

she's inbetween every line and speaks so I dont have to

she guids me from harm

her warm women feeds my soul

she's made my minds eye,feel,touch,smell and tast

she's in my heart deciding whats good for blue

warm she'll be with candels in a bare room and I know longer rule the world

with time and her soft in my hands,her skin glowing in candel light

she's in my heart deciding whats good for blue.

not quite finished,,,,needs PIANO!!!! and eletric guitar for leads with an acoustic guitar doing the rythummmmmmm,PRODUCTION!!!!

how about some AMERICANA,,,,,,,i SAW SAQUASH!!!!!!!!!,,FOR REAL MAN,DONT BELIVE ME ASK oRLANDO,,, WE WHER CAMPING UP IN yOLLA bOLLA WILDERNESS,WE HAD BEEN UP THER ALONE FOR LIKR THREE WEEKS,NO LOGING TRUCKS ,NO PEOPLE AND THE DAY BEFOR i GOT BOARD AND STARTED SHOOTING UP THE PLACE,i COULDNT GET ANY RECEPTION ON MY LITTLE TRANSISTOR RADIO,,(MY ONLY LINK WITH MANKIND) AND ST IT UP AND JUST BLASTED IT FULL OF TWENTY TWO HOLES,,,,,IT PISED ME OFF,,,WELL THE NIGHT ROLLED AROUND AS i WAS WISHING i DIDNT BLAST MY RADIO TO SMITERIENS,,,,IT GETS COLD AT NIGHT UP THERE AND LIKE i SAID lots!!!OF RATTEL SNAKES,,AND BEARS AND THE MOST DANGEROUS ANIMAL OF ALL IS,,"""the range cattel!!!!"man these thingds are MEAN!! big giant steer with big giant hornes and they fend forthemselfs up there in the mountains,,from bears snakes ect,... there mean and dont freakin get in there way,,,they once in a while roam into our camp site,they just walk all over everything,cant really shew them away dont wana piss em off ya know and if theres a new born with them your really in deep bat guanoooo!!,,,so my black friend Orlando(how are ya man,remember me,just in case) so Orlando cooking up us some chow of frezz dried food,,again and I got a RAGIN CAMP FIRE GOING,THIS IS VERRY ALONE MIND YOU,LOOK AT A MAP FIND PASKENTA AND GO up AND LEFT,,WILDERNESS MAN SERIOUS WILDERNESS,,, SO THE CAMP FIRES GOING AND ME AND THIS BLACK MAN SITTING IN THE WOODS IN THE SERIOUS MIDDLE OF KNOWWHERE,DANGEROUS,,THERE WAS SOME RACISUM THEN,SOME ONE TRYED TO RUN oRLANDO OFF THE ROAD WE HAD TO JUMP OFF A SMALL BRIDG TO GET OUTT OF THE WAY,WE WOULDA BEEN DEAD WELL HE WOULD HAVE BEEN i NOTICED,i NOTICED THAT,HE NOT ME, ,,,

SO IT'S PITCH BLACK EXCEPT FOR OUR CAMPFIRE,NO FOOD GOING JUST SMOKING CIGERETTS,TALKING ABOUT HOW THE WORLD sucks!! AND WE HEARD SOMTING BIG,YOU COULD HEARE THE WEIGHT OF IT STEPING ON THE GROUND,IT WAS CIRCALING OUR CAMPFIRE,STAYING JUST OUT OF THE LIGHT,,IT STARTED TO REALLY FREAK US OUT,COULD BE A HUNTER OF ANY KIND,,KISINSKEYS ARE IN PLACES LIKE THAT SOMTIMES,,,SO WE YELLD OUT TO SEE IF WE COULDNT GET A REACTION,,NO,NO RESPONCE WE TRYED AGAIN A COUPPLE TIMES,NOTING WOULD SCAre this thing away,so we just started shooting into the woods(bad rock star,I know I was young))well even that wouldnt chase whatever it was away ,,,it just kept circaling our camp fire,,,eventually we stoked the fire made a lot of noise and finnaly the black woods grew quiet aGAIN,,,IT'S NOT BEAR BEHAVIOUR,,,,,

IT WAS QUITE A TIME IN MY LIFE BACK THEN LIKE NINETEEN LIVING ON MY OWN IN THE DEEP WOODS,WATCHING OUT FOR MOUNTAIN LIONS THAT STEAL BABBYS OUT OF PEOPLES BACK YARDS,,,,FOR REAL,,,HANGING OUT WITH sHAWN,THE INDIAN,THERE IN PASKENTA AND RECE,,WANT TO HELP BUT i'M TOLD i CANT PROMIS ANYTHING,BUT i'LL GET MY WAY IN SOME WAYS YA KNOW,THEY KNOW WHERE ALL THESE PEOPLE ARE,,,,i WAS RUNNING,,YEA i WAS ON THE RUN,JUMPED BAIL i DID,THATS WHY MY DAD WONT BAIL ME OUT AGAIN,DONT BLAme him that was really stupid,well I got a good year alone in the mountains befor I turned myself in,,

I was just a kid beatten and abused by parents that drank and did drugs and beat each other up and us,,I never even got a fair chance,,nope not even a chance I was probably tramatized by the age of five(the summer of love,me)really almost died that tear like six or seven serious head injurys just in that year alone,,like eighty stiches in my head tottal,if I shaved my head I'd look like frankenstine,,,all sides are flat and the back is smashed flat,I showed my skull xray to my docter here in tahoe and she went,,"WOW",one of my eye sockets are square and has jaged edges,my two frount teeth(the walrus)have grown into ny nasel bone then on into my forehead,,it dosent look real,could be from all the prendison they used to pump me with for(stigmata,or abses ulsers,depending on what you belive<not contagoius,stress,gone now though my brain figured it out,wrong signal,oops,,,,,

so yea I sapose that atributes to some of my pain but not much other than my nose(broken like five times)dosent work right,and some lightning strikes across my face,,but it dosent affect my life like my neck and sholder do<<afect my life).

crazy life hu? pulled myself up with my own boot straps,over came all ods of me surviving being brought up like that,survived all odds,I shouldnt be here,most kids like me dont make twenty,I'm older than John Lennon,someone said to me look at the bright side of life,peace usally dosent live long,,ya know,,not me man ,your all not gonna do that to me,,,not me my friends I'm here to win and win ONLY!!!!

from abused child to homless to dishwasher to jail to the mountains to l.a. to school in central l.a. to novato ca, to laberer,to aprentice plumber to jerneyman plumber to plumbing division supervisor to FREAKIN ROCK STAR,and now on to living legend,,,,no my friends you dont stop ME,I'm here to win and WIN ONLY,NOW i'M IN LOVE AND OH SO MUCH STRONGER FOR SHE THAT LOVES ME,NO MY FRIENDS

I WIN!!!!!! 

peace be with all of you today, ok? 

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gota show my sweet heart she has noting to worry about ,at all,it's a plesure to turn down every women in the world for her ,jennifer, not a challenge,,,

my fame ,,record executives,,is changing greatly,now they want jennifer and I togeather and people are WAY cooler to me,people dont jump down my back for what I write anymore,,I'm like mark Twain,man,everyone,,he coments on the days events no holds bared,if Mark Twain thought it sucked he told you it SUCKED!!,people achually are noticably more carefull when there around me in there car I have noticed,people DONT,EVER,slander jennifer around me or near me,much better,they say nice things in ear shot not nasty evil things,,,

much better everyone got fifty thousand mega points for that one,,they got it togeather,now lets see if everyone can KEEP IT TOGEATHER,theres great rewards for everyone if/WHEN,I get playing on a stage pumping out markiting like crazy,everyone will benifit,like Bob Dylan generated billions and trillions of dollers to the us econamy,let alone Elvis Presly,I'm the world,man I'M FREAKIN "PINK", people in the amazone jungel know who the one is,tribsmen in Africa know who the one is,,,,,the one,my slash marks in the vapor trails in our skys,all over the world they do that not just in america,I've een it in the back ground in a documentery in africa,in the sky,,,wow,,!

I'll staY THE WAY i AM,SHOWING JENNIFER MY SHILVERY AND DEVOATION,IT'S JUST ME SO IT'S NOT HARD TO DO,i'M NOT MISSING ANYTHING,i WOULDNT TRADE MY THOUGHTS OF JENNIFER EVERY DAY AND NIGHT FOR A YOUNG GIRL,NOPE WOULDNT DO IT,JUST THE FEELING THAT SHES WITH ME IS A GIFT BEYOND BELIVING,,i CAN ONLY BE ME

,GETTING ANGRY ABOUT THE SITUATION AND TAKING ADVANTAGE OF BEING A ROCK STAR ,GIRLS DO JUST WALK UP TO ME AND ASK ME IF i NEED SEX,NOT SO MUCH IN TAHOE BUT EVERY WHERE ELSE,IT'S NOT ME YA KNOW,i'M KINDA GETTING UP THERE AND LOOKING FOR FOREVER,SHE OFFERED AND i AGREED AND FELL DEEP,YEA SWEETY YOU LIt MY FLAme allright,,,so I dont know

,just be me ,there is no change to be made,I know when I find the right thing,I know drugs alcahol and women will wind me in a prision cell some day or worse dead in the morg,it's nice to flirt with a women and prove so theres no dought spend the time ya know if ya want it to last,like rack star play it like ya mean it spend the time,if thats what you want be real about it,so she sees me being the man I am well manered,handeling fame in a verry EXTREM situation,shilvelry,not on drugs,,NOT ON DRUGS!!!,I've read about certain rock stars trading full on yaughts,ships, for a bag of herion,,

ya see how diligently I worked on my carrear and the way I wanted to be seen,see all the pit falls I missed,see I got messed up with seventy thousand dollers not seventy billion dollers,moneys a tool,that wont happen again,,,learn I knew to be a real rock star a suscesfull one I needed to learn to read the stocks,I had to be smart to have all that money and not have handlers handel everything for me then ya lose track get taken and get yourself more alienated by not attending to real world bussiness,,,,not gambeling or the horse track,,,INVESTING AND COMODITYS,,world banking,no drugs you'll lose respect from a faction,they will see you as weak,,want to be knighted by england not seen as weak,rock star ,nighted,,yes,,want to win the princess heart more than anything in the world,I swat at the world and it's safty for my lonleness from her,like a cat toy,I try to hold it back and not take it out on everyone,,but somtimes,,,i

it's like a little kid with a verry big toy,,,,THE WORLD!!!!!"wheres my sweety???!boom,,it's a joy to show her how much I love her,I dress just in case see sees me,walking down the street,she might be here she might be worried about me or ,,,,miss me?.

gota go to the club man, sister,,hey sister your on tour,I'jm lisithning to the lyrics to your new cd. brittney,,it's cool man,sister,I really dig the circus theam somthing about that old guy walking at you with that cane,,cool vidioing,put a real feel into it,,,thank for helping brittney,for real have a great tour,!!! peace in everyone gota go this is starting to hurt my neck,,,peace,,

HURRY,UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I live with all of you all of you live with me!,,,hurry up!!chucks 

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seems like I bang out a new one every time I play these days,not all saved of corse but most of them,my lead is really getting where I want it...

dress like a rock star,,mind is manifistation,looking out of place puts in place,the talents there,I'm claiming,my claim to fame I put in the time ,for living legend,,thery said to me the other day"we dont care what THEY say,we care what YOU say,kevin,about other guitar players and athority,

I 've been tinkering away at skill,practicing like crazy five houres a day on a good day,writing cooler stuf thinking more like bad music writing for progressive rock,,great stuff for stage swows,,wana just retire and be a hollywood writer kevin?",,,,,,it's hard to have confidence in this situation remember I live in cronic pain,,although I'm SUPER HEALTHY,,in every other aspect and strongM,i'HAVENT BEEN TO A HOSPITAL IN A LONG TIME,like eight months,,,,,,what a chore of a guy to go out with,world famous,poor,lives in pain,,,,theres big drawbacks to having a life with someone and fame at the same time,,,,,,,

I'm board everyone this little mottel romm is starting to drive me crazy,,this is the longest place I have lived ever in my life,,,even as a kid my mother moved us every year to a diferent apartment,,,"I'm mr.brezz,,,I'm the wind,,"all she ever thinks about is riding with the wind"

long time she tells me, I'm floored, she knows my history,someone that thinks about me like that is really cool,she knows me better than I know myself,she watched me ship[ off in the carnival,she saw me become a jorneyman plumber,she watched me get hurt at work and recover,she watched me push myself to freakin rock star,it must be she that has done all these things for me as it WAS SHE THAT WAS THERE THROUGH IT ALL!" 

heres somting I wrote this morning,,save I dont know yet,,is it cool to look into my song writing prossess?

                                                "every step"

with every step I the sun

awakens the other side of mother earth

when the sun loves the moon

the world opens it's pain

when I speaks the sun

thunder rolls across the plain

I bring fire and I bring rain

the disrespect brings brimstone and fire and the love

brings the moon to quench the fire in the heart of the sun

with every step I the sun awakens the other side of mother earth.

it's all still there ,power that is it's just kinda chilled right now,power has to be tempered,,,,just put apoun the shelf somtimes,a break from weilding it,it is exausting,,,thinking how Maquta Al Sadar has droped out of the pitcher sort of and the sheits that I'm told sainted me,and just how calmed down are these places because you have to have a concern I mean they sainted you, thinking about Africa and the Congo and did that skirmish reduce the amount of slavery going on in the Congo I dont even know the out come ya just figure since it always goes right that indeed it did go right.

hellow polititions,Nancy and Finstine<thoes home body constiuents(right word?),,,,this is really starting to wear on me here,do I really get the Limintor house?hu wouldnt that be cool.thats a rock stars house man/ladies,it's got the youth hostel for anyone that makes it that close,,,,,I didnt even think I would make it to a bay area musicain status,,but like "a good one" like Carlose santana or Bonni Ratt,pretty cool to out sucseed your higest expectations,dam I slept on the roof of Jack in the box on forth st.,my sleeping bag would turn black from the roof tar,

I'm there but not there,so close I can taste it,,,wana help quicken the pace,,,shurly there must be somting you ladies can do to help out a local legend,hmmm?

anyway I gota go for a while,,,myspace site coming soon with vidios,my c.d. music new songs and photos of my art,,see ya then,in ten days,maybe,

I'm getting much more confident about you sweetheart,you can cure anything! 

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I stoped fustrating on the computer yesterday and went to go burn one which I did,by a creekside in the woods when returning from my 420 mision I bumbed into my friend from Ventura,,,yipi good timeing,,my tec saport,,...so for a hundred buckaroos he's going to get a myspace account togeather for me,with ,,,vidios photos of me and art,and some songs from my 2005 c.d."back from somewhere",,like ten days,,ganja saves the day had I kept fustrating on the computer I would have missed my friend,,,good timeing

I've been in my own head a lot lattly,I was just standing in Block buster vidio,,,oh man,,keep a grip,this lonelyness ,,just freaken slaming me,,,the other day I was getting rolling anxiety attacks like one every two hours for two days stright,,,,,pot is'nt helping much,,,shes always on my mind every second of every day,to day all day long in my head"kevins mine,kevins,mine'"where his hearts at""Lady Gaga"I hope that means jen cause to me it dose or do I have the lyrics wrong,I go home and lisithen to "Dimond Girl"Serals and Croft"or Al Green "Love and Happyness"

this is not a normal situation to be in,there are no prerequisits to learn from,,,ya know I'm the sun and shes the moon,,but dose she agree? seems so,so whatever it is I"m waiting for nothing happens untill the thing I'm waitng for happens,till then no wife on love on conversation no friends ,,dead alone for like three years in this apt and three more years befor that,,can only guess that the problum I'm having is due to FAME!!!!.

It's easy sweety to blame it on you but I dont and wont it's like Bob Dylan says "A simpel twist of fate"my lonelyness I mean cause you got more than my attention,,dont forget about me !"you sweet heart,how could I forget about YOU!!",,

it was in kings beach and they(friend rock stars)said for me to go through the tabloids and "pick somebody"pay attention they said someone thats not married,take your time,,,,,I said NO!!,that will make me look like a sexist pig,I wont do it!,,,fine they said we'll pick someone for you,,,and days latter I met jennifer,,,,god bless america and whatever made this beatifull creatchur,,,you hit me like a freight train honey,wham gone,,I'm yours,,your so rad,,coolest chick ever in thoes shades,,a rock stars, movie star girl,,,I wont forget things like "bend it with beckam""look theres kevin and jennifer",,misses O'connell in the last scean in Bruce Almighty"but not on t.v. I noticed but I think it's on the dvd,,,,dont worry sweety I'm not going to the party WITHOUT YOU!!!!,,nope sorry wont cooperate without jennifer here in any aspect but some aspect or,,,,GO AWAY"are you from the bank?..my pa said if someone from the bank shows up to shoot them,,,are you from the bank,I dont see jennifer!!   a little k humor there,how many times have I said to myself"Love Me"Love me"sweety ya gota do somting about me,,I got it bad b.b.King."if ya dont know what I'm talkin about k then you dont know ,you dont know ,nothin about love,,,whens then,,,,""""

Love me,Love Me,Love Me,love the monster sweety

peace everyone home bound 

someone said to me today,,,,"for shure kevin you have the hardest job going,,"a rock star from the streets in love with a movie star,,no money in my start up.,no helping parents no helping anyone but my family of artist,,thanks forever I think this really sucks right now my friends ,,my hearts on the page,dont know howm much more I can give 

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yea well nothing works,I just made another e-mail acount and the pass word dosent work,thats the second one that dosent work so ya see I'm strugeling with a fu   ken e-mail acount and you all want vidios??!!hu!!!good luck,cause thats what it will be ,,pure luck, I'm tired of screwing around with this thing so off to burn two for peace,I got better things to do!!!!!.peace in  more4 world stuff latter,I dont need this blog to spread info ya know,,you all do know that right,it's just a gift for all the loners out there,the efect of me closing this blog, cost lives,,,,every time,,,every time,,hopefully I'll get out of this funk befor it starts efecting are econamy,it is my econamy to and it's my life that efects it,,,great,,,pakestan,,hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,,,my grape vine takes seconds now to get around the world,just by talking in public,,dont need a web site I've tested this befor,remember eight trains blew up in India,,the same day I closed my blog,,,check the date and my blog the day befor,

my comunication systum is more powerfull and more perfect than the military,I can get a message to any leader I want in minets,well probably seconds!!!

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I think I reashured myself,thinking about jennifer things,and how serious it is for a movie star to do that for someone she loves,like in friends"ross green shirt kisses jen and goes ,,:ohhh?and jenifer says,"yea but I love kevin oconnell"lot of things like that,it's just not somthing stars do ,,for anyone,,,I'm floored you guys and gals,really,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,for an artist to be hailed from all his fellow artist,world wide is a dream come true for every artist,,I know she loves me,,,as I do her,,,,,,publicity,movie star, remember kevin,I'm shure she would rather me be lonely than to be having the time of my life drunk,and getting layed and that gets ya in BIG troubbl almost all the time,,,I'm safe here in tahoe,,healthy,,,,in love with the right women this time,can only help guild me through the fame world,they sais a coupple days ago "your gonna handel fame well my friend" gota thank Drew Carey this fine morning for the valadation,I can always count on Drew,for stuff like that,"your almost there kevin"quite a few kevins,this morning,thanks I needde that....dont forget,as soon as I put down my guitar, I FORGET, forget I can even play forget,why,I'm recognized,then I play again,,"oh yea"

I want to thank all of you again that keep me here,all the movie stars and all the rock stars behind,kevin/me,,,,,me? what did I do right? it was more than just being everyones plumber,did ya know my boss got the contract to do the plumbing for Donald Rumsfeld? yep, but they wanted to search my tools every day without extra pay!!!!! nope,sorry so we did'nt do it,so the polititions went"this guy broke his neck building OUR HOUSES!!!"yep thats true,,,,.

theres nothing wrong with me I am a hard working, smart,healthey young man,still look many years younger than I am because I eat super healthey,can incress your inteligence like seventy percent by what you eat!seventy perscent!!"I'm trying to think of a most comenly asked question,,,I was thinking how I got hurt at work,,,swing a pick axe at thirteen years old"cheeper than a back hoe,dig!),,

well I was drilling out a house boat on the docks of the bay in Salsalito c.a. thats like a right angel drill strong enough to bre3ak your arm,,,for real,I've been running that drill for like ten years,no problum for me,but I was making big bucks doing what I was doiing and there was never enough money!ya know,,,so I started moon lighting (for my co.) doing emergency calls,,,broken toilet,cloged sewer,,broken garbage disposal,I was getting half the ticket for emergency calls,thats like almost two hundred an hour after like nine oclock at night,,,so all night long emergency calls,,I was hurtin by morning,with loads of cash!!I had to go drill out this frakin house boat my boss needs quick money,,,,,,ok here we go ,,half asleep inhe ship yard,on the bay drilling almost three inch holes with a chisel bit,and the drill bit hit a nail and kicked and I was barly holding on to the drill just kinda letting it run in my hands,so my neck tryed to take the blow when the drill kicked,nope!not strong enough,,I was down on one knee,and the drill literaly picked me up and threw me down on thye other side of the drill,like a judo chop,wham,,right on my neck,,broken,pain filled up in me like water,from my neck radiating to my toes pain treally sever pain,then m,y6 hands stoped working ,,tottaly stoped working I couldnt get my tool belt off,trying not to freak,I got it togeather and went home amy told me to call the hospital cause somting was wrong with me and they said "get in here right now we think you have a sever neck injury,,,,?so off we went,,,I broke like at least nine of my vertabra in half,frount to back, lucky the bone that covers the spinal colum is still covering ,but the back part with the three prongs is broken off the frount of the vertabra,,ya see how that could be painfull,injury to have,,,it gets worse not better as the vertabra begin to disinagrate,breaking apart slowly,painfully,

well then I tryed to go back to work and broke my neck AGAIN!!!!!!hit my head on the header of a door(a crawl hole achually) like in "Dances with wolvs"kevin hits his head,just like that,lights out unconcious,I woke up having a sezjur,floping around on the concreat floor,like seven lumps on my head,musta bounced aroud befor I hit e ground,I got up aspitting peices of my teeth out and blood running down my face,shaking,,oh sit,,,, walked to the van and sat down,called my booss and said"man,I hurt myself really badly" and my aprentice took the phone,,,that was in Kings beach<in ten feet of snow,

so here we are today,,,strong again,,not quite as strong ,but almost jennifer will fix that situation smarter than ever before what he stars taught me about stocks and fame and import and export ect,world lot less pain been doing really well latly getting better from an injury they say will only get worse,havent been to emergency for like almost five months,walked like seventeen miles the other day,went to probation today and gave them there test,,pain in the you know what,even probation is helping me get out of this mess telling me less tests if I get out of mentel heaqlth court and thats next on my list so once a month would be better,thats only eight tests then free againI can get on sumerary probation if I OBAY!!!!!! for eight months,,,so far so good,god  they really just kinda crusifid me,no drug arrest ever,,shezz no police record,, no dui ats only six more months,dont get me in trouble again everyone jezzzz!  I'm gonna see if I can get some songs from my c.d. onto myspace,,,once again it's HELLOW, KEVIn !2MYSPAQCE .COM,i THINK

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I'm pretty shure thats it not shure if thats my user name

HELLOW, KEVIn j!   I'll try to find it latter,,,or maybe it's planetyoukevin@myspace.com,,it's one of thoes check it out I'll have to change my username to somting I will remember,,,,peace in everyone I gota go,,trying to keep it togeather,,,faith in them, kevin keep telling yourself,,or am I dreaming,ya see how easaly you could lose it?just buy grocires just pay your rent,just stay healthey,phycicly  and mentely,,easyer said than done my friends,he loves she.period,,,(remember, comercial"scott K ."  get it,? kevin period.peace be with you all till later

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I'm having a hard time of it latley,I wish I had all of your confidence evryone,shes everything to me over and above fame by far,I dont want fame without REAL LOVE or I'll go crazy,I know the formula,it's scary to be with a movie star,that is so beatifull,you think some rtich guy in hollywoods gonna come and take her away,I'm just the poor guy,,,the one that lives in the mottel room,,,,it's scary,this is new for me I've never been in love if this is what love is,never felt that, like jennifer befor,shes in her interview about "Bruce Almighty"and the little wrestiling manuver",thats me and she""you know I'm talking about kevin right?"jennifer says,tiny thing,I forget how strong I am somtimes,,I hold on to that and things like that,there there all over,I'm not out searching for a women companion to keep me company or go hiking with me,there are none theres only she,I sat her down in my kings beach apt,achually I called her and she was at my apt,and I said ,"please dont go anywhere I'm on my way,I have somting important to tell you""ok'she said,I drove home as quick as I could,,,I walked in and asked her to sit down(I dont say these thi ngs lightly to anyone!!) I held her sholders and said"I"M in love with you" for real,we bolth agreed to attempting to make babbys,,, "oh god then I woke up one morning and she was gone,,"dont leave"  and she came back a coupple days latter and got down on her knees and said"the things you and I am going to share in the futcher is beyond anything you can belive" and she kissed me and said she had things to take care of and so did I,,(I barly knew I was famous then) and I didnt know that that girl I fell in love with was jennifer anistion,untill much latter.and still in love with you sweetheart,,it's all you to me ,there is no" Brook"

I'm losin it everyone I fell off the clif a coupple days ago,and cant convince myself that anything is real,it's a weird place I dont like it it hurts,it's like having a falling dream but your still falling and your awake,,it's a new place it's a lonley place,I try the radio when I first wake up,,it helps a little but then on the way here to the college I notice,that the women I'm so feircly in love with is'nt here ,,shes not right down the road or at the store,or someone to sere latter,,h,shes not there it's just the woods,just another tree,and why would she be there your just the poor guy

the one with the mottel room,I asked her not to leave I'll go back to work I said ,I'll take care of you,us,screw all that out there that your dealing with,I'll go back to work I make a lot of money as a plumber(with a broken neck) 

I have to have this all and forever faith in them,,who?the entertainment industry,,I mean you cant buy this kind of love from fellow artist at any price,,,watch me constantly,twenty four hours a day,just in case,,dont eat that kevin,,your gonna get sick kevin,the brittney one would say.

so all thoes things are real that really happened that love afair is real,I hadent watched a t.v. in like ten years,untill kings beach I didnt know who jennifer even was,or anything about t.v. people anything,nothing no t.v. for like ten years before I didnt know even that jennifer aniston was a movie star I thought she was just on friends,just a t.v. person,not a big movie star,and it was love then and it still is,and now shes made multipul movies and won awards since then,and shes on every magazine,and she ravegingly beatifull,,but still the same person inside that I fell in love with,and I'm just the guy with the mottel room in s.lake tahoe,devote,I dont want gropies I need a wife,,,that will stay with me forever,my best friend and comrade,rock star is a hard world to weave around in and I'll need her help<<<<<gropies,,,gropies,,,your done,insaine in two monthes and a drunk and heart broken no,,,sit down sweetheart " i LOVE YOU"

YOUR READING ME TRYING TO REASHURE MYSELF,,,i GOTA GET OUT OF THIS MIND SET QUICKLY,,,, TO MYSPACE..

Posted by planetyoukevin at 1:58 PM EDT
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,I just kind fall off the clif sometimes,everything gone all washed away when you realize how imposibal what you are thinking is,there she is on that magazine,,,yea someone said that if there that paying attention to you you know you've done it,,but that dosent help,that maybe next month or next year or tomorow,

but some young girl was really cool when I was in the store this morning,she saw I was kinda down,and she motioned her head up ,,,,the over head music was saying "kevin" she smiled ,nice really nice,thanks I said,",dont forget who you are!!"

I do forget I just fall off the clif,whoshhh,,then I go hoime and play and I feel a little better because I know what I'm playing is rare,to be able to play,my practice sessions are SMOKIN  lately so thats good right off the top of my head a new song almost everytime I play it

all that pressure is gone from my medical marjuana,not worrying about that jail anymore,getting acoustomed to all that,really messed with my head for a while there,,so I'm slowly phazing into that,I can smoke pot,,ok step one done,sucsessfull,I'm still attached to this mentel health court thing so thats step three,,two appointment per month,,,well it's the handicaped,and I'm for them,so thats cool,I'll go hang out with them for a while,might be a good uplift for everyone,.

my playing wow,smokin harmonica and guitar at the same time,standing up runing around my apt,achually,need a better harmonica stand,mine cost eight bucks,,getting back in practice is fun,breaking new ground is even better,"Dino Velenta"used to tell me that the songs that just write themselfs,,thoes are the hits,,,thats "Quick Silver Mesenger Service".

lets see once apoun a time I lived in a mottel in central san rafaELL,WITH A GUY HIS WIFE AND THERE LITTLE KID ABOUT THREE YEARS OLD,AND "tHE gRATFULL dEAD"HAD A REHERSAL STUDIO RIGHT NEXT DOOR,,,Jerry new who I was long befor I did,,,no women jerry used to say to everyone ,no women for kevin<< it was rule,,,ya just dont,with the crowd I was hanging out with then,good advice,,,of corse I always got pissed off about that but here I am alive and healthy,for SHE!!,,one time Jerry Garcia picked me up hitchiking and he said to me"you dont want to be like them do you?"thoes yupis he was talking about the hurry up to work people,,,"All angry and fired up",,,Jerry said "dont be like them" I wont I said ,I wont,"Dark Star "ya know,,,oh man and I was dark at onre time,dark like angry not criminal,just made and gimmi the world kinda,,,,remember the thirtyith anaversery concert,I picked a flower a lilly I belive and everyone was giving me a hard time about it "ya know how maney people could have enjoyed that flowers beauty?"fu   off hippi,,well I started feeling guilty quickly and so I gave it away to some pretty girl,,,

SO LOOK NOW DEAD HEADS,A FLOWER,,,,HU!!!!!!!!,HOW ABOUT AN OIL REFINERI AND A SEA TURTTEL NESTING GROUND!""",,,WHEN SHOT AT IT BECOMES EASEY TO SHOOT BACK,,,,PUT ME IN COACH i'M READY TO PLAY THIS GAME,,,,AN i'M gOD,,,,,,,,THE POWER CHILD"""SHOW ME THE POWER CHILD!!!"

HELLOW MY NAME IS KEVIN,i GREW UP HERE,DONT MIND THE LONG HAIR i'M THE POWER CHILD!"

i KNOW HOW TO ACSESS MY FAME HOW TO HOLD IT FOR HOW LONG BEFOR GETTING BURNED,FAME IS A FOMADABAL WEPON,,,AND LIKE CRISSY HYND SAYS "GONNA USE MY LEGENDATION"" YOU BET i WILL, WITH AN IRON FIST,IT'S MY LIFE, YA ONLY LIVE ONCE, SHE LOVES ME i'M GOING FOR GLORY,,GET OUT OF MY way!!!!!!!!

PEACE IN EVERYONE GOTTA GO NOW,LATTLY DEPRESION BUT i'LL DRAG MYSELF OUT OF IT SOMEHOW,SHE WILL ,SHE DID THIS MORNING,,, 

LOT OF JUST MY OWN PERSONAL THINGS i'M DEALING WITH LATELY,NOT WORLD STUFF,GOTTA MAKE SHUR MY HEADS ON STRIGHT,YOU CAN GO MAD WITH POWER THERE IS TRUTH TO THAT,PRACTICE,PRACTICE,PRACTICE,LOT OF UPLIFTING COMENTS LATTLY THANKS EVERYONE,THANKS NOT GONE UNNOTICED! 

Posted by planetyoukevin at 2:59 PM EDT
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hmm,intresting thing to say,not verry nice,it's like this everyone

theres a lot of validation for me,,"Trust me"blue,a mitsubishii advertizment"I do blue",shes all about ,trust me,then I see yer on a magizine,,it just all falls apart,,everything,"It cant be so" I cant be as  famous as I think I am,this beatifull women cant like me how can that be,I'm poor holding up in a mottel  room,she has a movie star life,sunshine l.a. photo shoots,my life passes away day by day pretty uneventfull except for cooler and cooler fan coments,it just dosent jive,but whenever I start to lose faith,theres somting else to say hellow to me,like the swiming pool scean wasent on t.v. untill the day after I mentioned it,(playing off each other to maxamize sales,,see it, it's obvious,and the scean was verry diferent from the prevoew before christmass, 

the bottom line is I havent met anything like love since or before,theres she everywhere but next to me ,so what if I find another love like that,well then thats the rael deal,so in eight years since I've met jennifer(known about you,sweetheart) no women has even come close towhat I felt from you,it's not a forgetable thing,no one ,,so I wait I want to be responsibal and singel and still have some dignity left even after making rock star if not for thinking about her reputation as well,,,not alice cooper,ya know,,,suave,classy,dont drink a good influence,,just work on thoes things,and my guitar playing ,while I have this time,and hope that what I belive to be true IS!!,hmmm,,it's heart break ,let me tell you knoe lie,,this stage of fame inbetween"limbo""Jerry Garcia calls it

,two places at once ,super famous and still in the populatino,wondering whats going on,women dont hit on or talk to me

,no one talks to me not for like six years,,,I havernt had a normal conversation with anypone in like six years ago,I got to talk to a college student over brandy the idiology of art,mainly acient art and it's begning,,that was a long time ago,people dont treat me the same ,,,NO ONE TALKS TO ME,I've become the perfect stranger,everyone knows me but no one knows me,and I walk by a local bussiness and there scrached on there glass door a giant"K",spraypainted everywhere,,,that really slamed me this morning,,"makes ya wanna die"""hmmm,,it comes from "sombody is pulling my leg",,"it cant be,it's all a big evil joke,the things that roll through your head are incredibal,maybe I'm just misinterpriting it,but ,,shes still there,,,,,,

that was my dog "Choya" that lived with me in petaluma and he did eat a hole throught the sheet rock and destroyed the garage(julies moms house,ops) and I gave him to a guy that had a farm because he was to big and rambunchious,,part wolf and german sherperd,and her timing she knows just what my mind will be on at that piticuler moment watching the movie,when I'll crack my coller bone and just as I'm thinking somting she says it out load in the movie,like three times,

so what do you belive my friends???,there are no women,,,,none,meaning not one,did they stop for a reason,,,,,,,?like "Lenny Cravits" says,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,"I come from the mountain,the blood sucking nation,my hole situation made from clay and stone,and now I'm telling everybody"

so what do you belive my friends,,I try to belive my heart,,theres somting there to be shure , inside me,,,but I cant know,not for real,,,what do you belive my friends,,,

I'm down,around town,going home"god trying to make his way home"play some guitar or somthing to make me feel a little better,I sapose,at least I can get stoned

NO ONE CAN TOUCH ME UP HERE "PINK"

Posted by planetyoukevin at 2:19 PM EDT
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