seems like I bang out a new one every time I play these days,not all saved of corse but most of them,my lead is really getting where I want it...

dress like a rock star,,mind is manifistation,looking out of place puts in place,the talents there,I'm claiming,my claim to fame I put in the time ,for living legend,,thery said to me the other day"we dont care what THEY say,we care what YOU say,kevin,about other guitar players and athority,

I 've been tinkering away at skill,practicing like crazy five houres a day on a good day,writing cooler stuf thinking more like bad music writing for progressive rock,,great stuff for stage swows,,wana just retire and be a hollywood writer kevin?",,,,,,it's hard to have confidence in this situation remember I live in cronic pain,,although I'm SUPER HEALTHY,,in every other aspect and strongM,i'HAVENT BEEN TO A HOSPITAL IN A LONG TIME,like eight months,,,,,,what a chore of a guy to go out with,world famous,poor,lives in pain,,,,theres big drawbacks to having a life with someone and fame at the same time,,,,,,,

I'm board everyone this little mottel romm is starting to drive me crazy,,this is the longest place I have lived ever in my life,,,even as a kid my mother moved us every year to a diferent apartment,,,"I'm mr.brezz,,,I'm the wind,,"all she ever thinks about is riding with the wind"

long time she tells me, I'm floored, she knows my history,someone that thinks about me like that is really cool,she knows me better than I know myself,she watched me ship[ off in the carnival,she saw me become a jorneyman plumber,she watched me get hurt at work and recover,she watched me push myself to freakin rock star,it must be she that has done all these things for me as it WAS SHE THAT WAS THERE THROUGH IT ALL!" 

heres somting I wrote this morning,,save I dont know yet,,is it cool to look into my song writing prossess?

                                                "every step"

with every step I the sun

awakens the other side of mother earth

when the sun loves the moon

the world opens it's pain

when I speaks the sun

thunder rolls across the plain

I bring fire and I bring rain

the disrespect brings brimstone and fire and the love

brings the moon to quench the fire in the heart of the sun

with every step I the sun awakens the other side of mother earth.

it's all still there ,power that is it's just kinda chilled right now,power has to be tempered,,,,just put apoun the shelf somtimes,a break from weilding it,it is exausting,,,thinking how Maquta Al Sadar has droped out of the pitcher sort of and the sheits that I'm told sainted me,and just how calmed down are these places because you have to have a concern I mean they sainted you, thinking about Africa and the Congo and did that skirmish reduce the amount of slavery going on in the Congo I dont even know the out come ya just figure since it always goes right that indeed it did go right.

hellow polititions,Nancy and Finstine<thoes home body constiuents(right word?),,,,this is really starting to wear on me here,do I really get the Limintor house?hu wouldnt that be cool.thats a rock stars house man/ladies,it's got the youth hostel for anyone that makes it that close,,,,,I didnt even think I would make it to a bay area musicain status,,but like "a good one" like Carlose santana or Bonni Ratt,pretty cool to out sucseed your higest expectations,dam I slept on the roof of Jack in the box on forth st.,my sleeping bag would turn black from the roof tar,

I'm there but not there,so close I can taste it,,,wana help quicken the pace,,,shurly there must be somting you ladies can do to help out a local legend,hmmm?

anyway I gota go for a while,,,myspace site coming soon with vidios,my c.d. music new songs and photos of my art,,see ya then,in ten days,maybe,

I'm getting much more confident about you sweetheart,you can cure anything! 

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I stoped fustrating on the computer yesterday and went to go burn one which I did,by a creekside in the woods when returning from my 420 mision I bumbed into my friend from Ventura,,,yipi good timeing,,my tec saport,,...so for a hundred buckaroos he's going to get a myspace account togeather for me,with ,,,vidios photos of me and art,and some songs from my 2005 c.d."back from somewhere",,like ten days,,ganja saves the day had I kept fustrating on the computer I would have missed my friend,,,good timeing

I've been in my own head a lot lattly,I was just standing in Block buster vidio,,,oh man,,keep a grip,this lonelyness ,,just freaken slaming me,,,the other day I was getting rolling anxiety attacks like one every two hours for two days stright,,,,,pot is'nt helping much,,,shes always on my mind every second of every day,to day all day long in my head"kevins mine,kevins,mine'"where his hearts at""Lady Gaga"I hope that means jen cause to me it dose or do I have the lyrics wrong,I go home and lisithen to "Dimond Girl"Serals and Croft"or Al Green "Love and Happyness"

this is not a normal situation to be in,there are no prerequisits to learn from,,,ya know I'm the sun and shes the moon,,but dose she agree? seems so,so whatever it is I"m waiting for nothing happens untill the thing I'm waitng for happens,till then no wife on love on conversation no friends ,,dead alone for like three years in this apt and three more years befor that,,can only guess that the problum I'm having is due to FAME!!!!.

It's easy sweety to blame it on you but I dont and wont it's like Bob Dylan says "A simpel twist of fate"my lonelyness I mean cause you got more than my attention,,dont forget about me !"you sweet heart,how could I forget about YOU!!",,

it was in kings beach and they(friend rock stars)said for me to go through the tabloids and "pick somebody"pay attention they said someone thats not married,take your time,,,,,I said NO!!,that will make me look like a sexist pig,I wont do it!,,,fine they said we'll pick someone for you,,,and days latter I met jennifer,,,,god bless america and whatever made this beatifull creatchur,,,you hit me like a freight train honey,wham gone,,I'm yours,,your so rad,,coolest chick ever in thoes shades,,a rock stars, movie star girl,,,I wont forget things like "bend it with beckam""look theres kevin and jennifer",,misses O'connell in the last scean in Bruce Almighty"but not on t.v. I noticed but I think it's on the dvd,,,,dont worry sweety I'm not going to the party WITHOUT YOU!!!!,,nope sorry wont cooperate without jennifer here in any aspect but some aspect or,,,,GO AWAY"are you from the bank?..my pa said if someone from the bank shows up to shoot them,,,are you from the bank,I dont see jennifer!!   a little k humor there,how many times have I said to myself"Love Me"Love me"sweety ya gota do somting about me,,I got it bad b.b.King."if ya dont know what I'm talkin about k then you dont know ,you dont know ,nothin about love,,,whens then,,,,""""

Love me,Love Me,Love Me,love the monster sweety

peace everyone home bound 

someone said to me today,,,,"for shure kevin you have the hardest job going,,"a rock star from the streets in love with a movie star,,no money in my start up.,no helping parents no helping anyone but my family of artist,,thanks forever I think this really sucks right now my friends ,,my hearts on the page,dont know howm much more I can give 

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yea well nothing works,I just made another e-mail acount and the pass word dosent work,thats the second one that dosent work so ya see I'm strugeling with a fu   ken e-mail acount and you all want vidios??!!hu!!!good luck,cause thats what it will be ,,pure luck, I'm tired of screwing around with this thing so off to burn two for peace,I got better things to do!!!!!.peace in  more4 world stuff latter,I dont need this blog to spread info ya know,,you all do know that right,it's just a gift for all the loners out there,the efect of me closing this blog, cost lives,,,,every time,,,every time,,hopefully I'll get out of this funk befor it starts efecting are econamy,it is my econamy to and it's my life that efects it,,,great,,,pakestan,,hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,,,my grape vine takes seconds now to get around the world,just by talking in public,,dont need a web site I've tested this befor,remember eight trains blew up in India,,the same day I closed my blog,,,check the date and my blog the day befor,

my comunication systum is more powerfull and more perfect than the military,I can get a message to any leader I want in minets,well probably seconds!!!

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I think I reashured myself,thinking about jennifer things,and how serious it is for a movie star to do that for someone she loves,like in friends"ross green shirt kisses jen and goes ,,:ohhh?and jenifer says,"yea but I love kevin oconnell"lot of things like that,it's just not somthing stars do ,,for anyone,,,I'm floored you guys and gals,really,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,for an artist to be hailed from all his fellow artist,world wide is a dream come true for every artist,,I know she loves me,,,as I do her,,,,,,publicity,movie star, remember kevin,I'm shure she would rather me be lonely than to be having the time of my life drunk,and getting layed and that gets ya in BIG troubbl almost all the time,,,I'm safe here in tahoe,,healthy,,,,in love with the right women this time,can only help guild me through the fame world,they sais a coupple days ago "your gonna handel fame well my friend" gota thank Drew Carey this fine morning for the valadation,I can always count on Drew,for stuff like that,"your almost there kevin"quite a few kevins,this morning,thanks I needde that....dont forget,as soon as I put down my guitar, I FORGET, forget I can even play forget,why,I'm recognized,then I play again,,"oh yea"

I want to thank all of you again that keep me here,all the movie stars and all the rock stars behind,kevin/me,,,,,me? what did I do right? it was more than just being everyones plumber,did ya know my boss got the contract to do the plumbing for Donald Rumsfeld? yep, but they wanted to search my tools every day without extra pay!!!!! nope,sorry so we did'nt do it,so the polititions went"this guy broke his neck building OUR HOUSES!!!"yep thats true,,,,.

theres nothing wrong with me I am a hard working, smart,healthey young man,still look many years younger than I am because I eat super healthey,can incress your inteligence like seventy percent by what you eat!seventy perscent!!"I'm trying to think of a most comenly asked question,,,I was thinking how I got hurt at work,,,swing a pick axe at thirteen years old"cheeper than a back hoe,dig!),,

well I was drilling out a house boat on the docks of the bay in Salsalito c.a. thats like a right angel drill strong enough to bre3ak your arm,,,for real,I've been running that drill for like ten years,no problum for me,but I was making big bucks doing what I was doiing and there was never enough money!ya know,,,so I started moon lighting (for my co.) doing emergency calls,,,broken toilet,cloged sewer,,broken garbage disposal,I was getting half the ticket for emergency calls,thats like almost two hundred an hour after like nine oclock at night,,,so all night long emergency calls,,I was hurtin by morning,with loads of cash!!I had to go drill out this frakin house boat my boss needs quick money,,,,,,ok here we go ,,half asleep inhe ship yard,on the bay drilling almost three inch holes with a chisel bit,and the drill bit hit a nail and kicked and I was barly holding on to the drill just kinda letting it run in my hands,so my neck tryed to take the blow when the drill kicked,nope!not strong enough,,I was down on one knee,and the drill literaly picked me up and threw me down on thye other side of the drill,like a judo chop,wham,,right on my neck,,broken,pain filled up in me like water,from my neck radiating to my toes pain treally sever pain,then m,y6 hands stoped working ,,tottaly stoped working I couldnt get my tool belt off,trying not to freak,I got it togeather and went home amy told me to call the hospital cause somting was wrong with me and they said "get in here right now we think you have a sever neck injury,,,,?so off we went,,,I broke like at least nine of my vertabra in half,frount to back, lucky the bone that covers the spinal colum is still covering ,but the back part with the three prongs is broken off the frount of the vertabra,,ya see how that could be painfull,injury to have,,,it gets worse not better as the vertabra begin to disinagrate,breaking apart slowly,painfully,

well then I tryed to go back to work and broke my neck AGAIN!!!!!!hit my head on the header of a door(a crawl hole achually) like in "Dances with wolvs"kevin hits his head,just like that,lights out unconcious,I woke up having a sezjur,floping around on the concreat floor,like seven lumps on my head,musta bounced aroud befor I hit e ground,I got up aspitting peices of my teeth out and blood running down my face,shaking,,oh sit,,,, walked to the van and sat down,called my booss and said"man,I hurt myself really badly" and my aprentice took the phone,,,that was in Kings beach<in ten feet of snow,

so here we are today,,,strong again,,not quite as strong ,but almost jennifer will fix that situation smarter than ever before what he stars taught me about stocks and fame and import and export ect,world lot less pain been doing really well latly getting better from an injury they say will only get worse,havent been to emergency for like almost five months,walked like seventeen miles the other day,went to probation today and gave them there test,,pain in the you know what,even probation is helping me get out of this mess telling me less tests if I get out of mentel heaqlth court and thats next on my list so once a month would be better,thats only eight tests then free againI can get on sumerary probation if I OBAY!!!!!! for eight months,,,so far so good,god  they really just kinda crusifid me,no drug arrest ever,,shezz no police record,, no dui ats only six more months,dont get me in trouble again everyone jezzzz!  I'm gonna see if I can get some songs from my c.d. onto myspace,,,once again it's HELLOW, KEVIn !2MYSPAQCE .COM,i THINK

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I'm pretty shure thats it not shure if thats my user name

HELLOW, KEVIn j!   I'll try to find it latter,,,or maybe it's planetyoukevin@myspace.com,,it's one of thoes check it out I'll have to change my username to somting I will remember,,,,peace in everyone I gota go,,trying to keep it togeather,,,faith in them, kevin keep telling yourself,,or am I dreaming,ya see how easaly you could lose it?just buy grocires just pay your rent,just stay healthey,phycicly  and mentely,,easyer said than done my friends,he loves she.period,,,(remember, comercial"scott K ."  get it,? kevin period.peace be with you all till later

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I'm having a hard time of it latley,I wish I had all of your confidence evryone,shes everything to me over and above fame by far,I dont want fame without REAL LOVE or I'll go crazy,I know the formula,it's scary to be with a movie star,that is so beatifull,you think some rtich guy in hollywoods gonna come and take her away,I'm just the poor guy,,,the one that lives in the mottel room,,,,it's scary,this is new for me I've never been in love if this is what love is,never felt that, like jennifer befor,shes in her interview about "Bruce Almighty"and the little wrestiling manuver",thats me and she""you know I'm talking about kevin right?"jennifer says,tiny thing,I forget how strong I am somtimes,,I hold on to that and things like that,there there all over,I'm not out searching for a women companion to keep me company or go hiking with me,there are none theres only she,I sat her down in my kings beach apt,achually I called her and she was at my apt,and I said ,"please dont go anywhere I'm on my way,I have somting important to tell you""ok'she said,I drove home as quick as I could,,,I walked in and asked her to sit down(I dont say these thi ngs lightly to anyone!!) I held her sholders and said"I"M in love with you" for real,we bolth agreed to attempting to make babbys,,, "oh god then I woke up one morning and she was gone,,"dont leave"  and she came back a coupple days latter and got down on her knees and said"the things you and I am going to share in the futcher is beyond anything you can belive" and she kissed me and said she had things to take care of and so did I,,(I barly knew I was famous then) and I didnt know that that girl I fell in love with was jennifer anistion,untill much latter.and still in love with you sweetheart,,it's all you to me ,there is no" Brook"

I'm losin it everyone I fell off the clif a coupple days ago,and cant convince myself that anything is real,it's a weird place I dont like it it hurts,it's like having a falling dream but your still falling and your awake,,it's a new place it's a lonley place,I try the radio when I first wake up,,it helps a little but then on the way here to the college I notice,that the women I'm so feircly in love with is'nt here ,,shes not right down the road or at the store,or someone to sere latter,,h,shes not there it's just the woods,just another tree,and why would she be there your just the poor guy

the one with the mottel room,I asked her not to leave I'll go back to work I said ,I'll take care of you,us,screw all that out there that your dealing with,I'll go back to work I make a lot of money as a plumber(with a broken neck) 

I have to have this all and forever faith in them,,who?the entertainment industry,,I mean you cant buy this kind of love from fellow artist at any price,,,watch me constantly,twenty four hours a day,just in case,,dont eat that kevin,,your gonna get sick kevin,the brittney one would say.

so all thoes things are real that really happened that love afair is real,I hadent watched a t.v. in like ten years,untill kings beach I didnt know who jennifer even was,or anything about t.v. people anything,nothing no t.v. for like ten years before I didnt know even that jennifer aniston was a movie star I thought she was just on friends,just a t.v. person,not a big movie star,and it was love then and it still is,and now shes made multipul movies and won awards since then,and shes on every magazine,and she ravegingly beatifull,,but still the same person inside that I fell in love with,and I'm just the guy with the mottel room in s.lake tahoe,devote,I dont want gropies I need a wife,,,that will stay with me forever,my best friend and comrade,rock star is a hard world to weave around in and I'll need her help<<<<<gropies,,,gropies,,,your done,insaine in two monthes and a drunk and heart broken no,,,sit down sweetheart " i LOVE YOU"

YOUR READING ME TRYING TO REASHURE MYSELF,,,i GOTA GET OUT OF THIS MIND SET QUICKLY,,,, TO MYSPACE..

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,I just kind fall off the clif sometimes,everything gone all washed away when you realize how imposibal what you are thinking is,there she is on that magazine,,,yea someone said that if there that paying attention to you you know you've done it,,but that dosent help,that maybe next month or next year or tomorow,

but some young girl was really cool when I was in the store this morning,she saw I was kinda down,and she motioned her head up ,,,,the over head music was saying "kevin" she smiled ,nice really nice,thanks I said,",dont forget who you are!!"

I do forget I just fall off the clif,whoshhh,,then I go hoime and play and I feel a little better because I know what I'm playing is rare,to be able to play,my practice sessions are SMOKIN  lately so thats good right off the top of my head a new song almost everytime I play it

all that pressure is gone from my medical marjuana,not worrying about that jail anymore,getting acoustomed to all that,really messed with my head for a while there,,so I'm slowly phazing into that,I can smoke pot,,ok step one done,sucsessfull,I'm still attached to this mentel health court thing so thats step three,,two appointment per month,,,well it's the handicaped,and I'm for them,so thats cool,I'll go hang out with them for a while,might be a good uplift for everyone,.

my playing wow,smokin harmonica and guitar at the same time,standing up runing around my apt,achually,need a better harmonica stand,mine cost eight bucks,,getting back in practice is fun,breaking new ground is even better,"Dino Velenta"used to tell me that the songs that just write themselfs,,thoes are the hits,,,thats "Quick Silver Mesenger Service".

lets see once apoun a time I lived in a mottel in central san rafaELL,WITH A GUY HIS WIFE AND THERE LITTLE KID ABOUT THREE YEARS OLD,AND "tHE gRATFULL dEAD"HAD A REHERSAL STUDIO RIGHT NEXT DOOR,,,Jerry new who I was long befor I did,,,no women jerry used to say to everyone ,no women for kevin<< it was rule,,,ya just dont,with the crowd I was hanging out with then,good advice,,,of corse I always got pissed off about that but here I am alive and healthy,for SHE!!,,one time Jerry Garcia picked me up hitchiking and he said to me"you dont want to be like them do you?"thoes yupis he was talking about the hurry up to work people,,,"All angry and fired up",,,Jerry said "dont be like them" I wont I said ,I wont,"Dark Star "ya know,,,oh man and I was dark at onre time,dark like angry not criminal,just made and gimmi the world kinda,,,,remember the thirtyith anaversery concert,I picked a flower a lilly I belive and everyone was giving me a hard time about it "ya know how maney people could have enjoyed that flowers beauty?"fu   off hippi,,well I started feeling guilty quickly and so I gave it away to some pretty girl,,,

SO LOOK NOW DEAD HEADS,A FLOWER,,,,HU!!!!!!!!,HOW ABOUT AN OIL REFINERI AND A SEA TURTTEL NESTING GROUND!""",,,WHEN SHOT AT IT BECOMES EASEY TO SHOOT BACK,,,,PUT ME IN COACH i'M READY TO PLAY THIS GAME,,,,AN i'M gOD,,,,,,,,THE POWER CHILD"""SHOW ME THE POWER CHILD!!!"

HELLOW MY NAME IS KEVIN,i GREW UP HERE,DONT MIND THE LONG HAIR i'M THE POWER CHILD!"

i KNOW HOW TO ACSESS MY FAME HOW TO HOLD IT FOR HOW LONG BEFOR GETTING BURNED,FAME IS A FOMADABAL WEPON,,,AND LIKE CRISSY HYND SAYS "GONNA USE MY LEGENDATION"" YOU BET i WILL, WITH AN IRON FIST,IT'S MY LIFE, YA ONLY LIVE ONCE, SHE LOVES ME i'M GOING FOR GLORY,,GET OUT OF MY way!!!!!!!!

PEACE IN EVERYONE GOTTA GO NOW,LATTLY DEPRESION BUT i'LL DRAG MYSELF OUT OF IT SOMEHOW,SHE WILL ,SHE DID THIS MORNING,,, 

LOT OF JUST MY OWN PERSONAL THINGS i'M DEALING WITH LATELY,NOT WORLD STUFF,GOTTA MAKE SHUR MY HEADS ON STRIGHT,YOU CAN GO MAD WITH POWER THERE IS TRUTH TO THAT,PRACTICE,PRACTICE,PRACTICE,LOT OF UPLIFTING COMENTS LATTLY THANKS EVERYONE,THANKS NOT GONE UNNOTICED! 

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hmm,intresting thing to say,not verry nice,it's like this everyone

theres a lot of validation for me,,"Trust me"blue,a mitsubishii advertizment"I do blue",shes all about ,trust me,then I see yer on a magizine,,it just all falls apart,,everything,"It cant be so" I cant be as  famous as I think I am,this beatifull women cant like me how can that be,I'm poor holding up in a mottel  room,she has a movie star life,sunshine l.a. photo shoots,my life passes away day by day pretty uneventfull except for cooler and cooler fan coments,it just dosent jive,but whenever I start to lose faith,theres somting else to say hellow to me,like the swiming pool scean wasent on t.v. untill the day after I mentioned it,(playing off each other to maxamize sales,,see it, it's obvious,and the scean was verry diferent from the prevoew before christmass, 

the bottom line is I havent met anything like love since or before,theres she everywhere but next to me ,so what if I find another love like that,well then thats the rael deal,so in eight years since I've met jennifer(known about you,sweetheart) no women has even come close towhat I felt from you,it's not a forgetable thing,no one ,,so I wait I want to be responsibal and singel and still have some dignity left even after making rock star if not for thinking about her reputation as well,,,not alice cooper,ya know,,,suave,classy,dont drink a good influence,,just work on thoes things,and my guitar playing ,while I have this time,and hope that what I belive to be true IS!!,hmmm,,it's heart break ,let me tell you knoe lie,,this stage of fame inbetween"limbo""Jerry Garcia calls it

,two places at once ,super famous and still in the populatino,wondering whats going on,women dont hit on or talk to me

,no one talks to me not for like six years,,,I havernt had a normal conversation with anypone in like six years ago,I got to talk to a college student over brandy the idiology of art,mainly acient art and it's begning,,that was a long time ago,people dont treat me the same ,,,NO ONE TALKS TO ME,I've become the perfect stranger,everyone knows me but no one knows me,and I walk by a local bussiness and there scrached on there glass door a giant"K",spraypainted everywhere,,,that really slamed me this morning,,"makes ya wanna die"""hmmm,,it comes from "sombody is pulling my leg",,"it cant be,it's all a big evil joke,the things that roll through your head are incredibal,maybe I'm just misinterpriting it,but ,,shes still there,,,,,,

that was my dog "Choya" that lived with me in petaluma and he did eat a hole throught the sheet rock and destroyed the garage(julies moms house,ops) and I gave him to a guy that had a farm because he was to big and rambunchious,,part wolf and german sherperd,and her timing she knows just what my mind will be on at that piticuler moment watching the movie,when I'll crack my coller bone and just as I'm thinking somting she says it out load in the movie,like three times,

so what do you belive my friends???,there are no women,,,,none,meaning not one,did they stop for a reason,,,,,,,?like "Lenny Cravits" says,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,"I come from the mountain,the blood sucking nation,my hole situation made from clay and stone,and now I'm telling everybody"

so what do you belive my friends,,I try to belive my heart,,theres somting there to be shure , inside me,,,but I cant know,not for real,,,what do you belive my friends,,,

I'm down,around town,going home"god trying to make his way home"play some guitar or somthing to make me feel a little better,I sapose,at least I can get stoned

NO ONE CAN TOUCH ME UP HERE "PINK"

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I also watched "Handcock" that was also great but of corse anything with will smith is a great movie.

I wanted to share some on the spot remembering,americana

thois mornings cold and the giant pine trees reminded me of living in "Paskenta"c.a. near "Corning"ca. rattel snake country,man big time!!! 

I lived in a trailer there in Paskenta for a while,with the bedfords,I been thinging about Chresie lattly,I last heard she was a nurse,that a cool job has a few children she was like sixteen or seventeen back then,just friends,sister like ,her mother fed me ,they found me living off the loging road up there in Yolla Bollai wilderness,yea by myself most of the time,my spanish black friend would come join me for a month once,a coupple weeks,once but I was there,with a tent like five miles to the nearest dirt loging road,,it's up there man,!!I had a lot of frezz dried food ,like multipul pounds of it,I had a twenty two rifie,lots of amo,thats right(from the coffie shop,someone,)yea I had my twemty first birthday up there,,,that was a reminder from someone sitting near me right now,, think about that,,,,so it was like the song says "stuck his finger to the world"life was bad then the woods was a welcome thing,coke partys,thievs,the streets,getting back stabed by your saposed good friends,just ,this guys going down,like in the military ,striping the dead,what he's worth till then,,,,so like "Bob Dylan sayes""Out to the country where I could not go wrong"well Paskent was cool,Indians out there,little trailer town mostly a way stop in to desolation,I remember the rangers foun my camp site one day""man ,what asre you doingh out here,your gonna get eatten by a bear,!" no man I know what I"m doing, yea,,we'll see, by, and he left,,freaken rattel snakes every where like every ten feet you here one,big timber rattlers,freaken every where,no water, dry ,hot ,high forest ,rosting hot like in the hundreds somtimes,I've seen golden eagels up there ,just floating on the breez,,,by myself verry freakin alone,I've seen verry l;arge moutain lions up there some of the bigest I've ever seen,marin has them to,,I was up there for like a year,I'd just had enough of the world,,I was like seventeen,eighteen,thinkin about Rece a lot latetly,this weather in tahoe I guess,always thinking about jenn,

that kitchen scean,in Marly and me"arguing,,is great ,dramatic,like wife and husband arguing in love,not hate arguing""it was great <I look at her/your /,movies in a diferent way now,like I'm seeing the camera and the crew in frount of you,thinking it's your craft!!"how hard to block all that out and be your role?? quite a skill, it made me feel like I was watching"house of seven gabels "or somting,,your really talented(will complaments get me any where?)

it's to beatifull a day to miss!I'm going walking through the woods with a pack full of organic food, and my med, gonna shoot some film of myself on the beach playing my harmonica possably..

I'm trying to keep my head on stright ebvery one ,it gets kinda crazy somtimes,you dont realize what RECOGNITION can do to a person,and poor and I'm hearing that on the radio,and remember,remember all the yes sighns from jennifer,there are not any no,keep a grip kevin,dont blow kevin,dont break your hand again kevin,,,so it can really twist your mind when just as your falling asleep some young girls drive by and screem "we love you kevin"""hu if ya loved me ya would have bought me dinner, not to be negitive or anything,,no going to sleep realizing my own fame from someone driving by my apt,is really cool,,,,,but then ya wake up in the morning and wham,,,"how much money do I have) and bills and I cant drive,and it's a beatifull day,and I must be insain to think she loves me,then some of that personal heart break I was telling you all about,,,,,,hey "Kelly Clarkson""Want another one?"  whenn I was a kid one time<<<<<<<<,,,,NO i WONT,,,,,,

IT'S HARD THEN i GOTTA JUST PUT IT ALL A SIDE AND PLAN MY for real day,,,,,,take a shower,,,make breakfast befor I go out the door or she'll get worried,,,then waite,,,I just said that,then look in the mirror why wouldnt I love you?" well hell that wasent meI wouldnt say that to myself,,,these little things go on as I'm getting ready,building my self confadence,,,,turn on the radio,Green Day "commen on like an armageden,,that helps,,,it's weird I was thinking about it last night that sometimes death seems easeyer,your alone ,cronic pain,a love you cant reach,relitives far away and fame struck by you,notings the same,reality is a reach somtimes,,,if It was just ended it would be easeyer,no more in pain no more briken heart no more ROCK STAR stress,no one hanging on my every word,dont talk about gun laws,split your fan base in half,maybe,,think of all these things day and night because the more you understand the faster and better you can minipulate it ,,I remember there in Kings Beach,,,making absolutly shur I didnt own a gun<<<the movie stars,,cause someone one would pay to get it away from you,,for shure,,thats what happens,,,see ya this sucks this is really hard,I dont even have a heart anymore,I've been alone/but not/for eight years,no warm women to wake up to for eight years ,it's hard it makes you want to justLEAVE...I got some history,nomatter what I'm there everyone knows it's me,,theres fame and my name ,,,thats good enough ,thats more than anyone dose,what I've allready won,/done,I can go I achived more than I ever dreamed I could,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,but ya gotta snap back from all that,,,,,,,time changes things,,,,dont let it get to you kevin"you dont want to be like them do you? "Jerry Garcia " said that to me ,he picked me up hitchiking once in marin,,,hellow carlose santana,,man,,ya coulda warned me,,a little ,maybe,,,,,well Neil Shone warned me I didnt lisithen,,I said "theres no such thing as to famous""" yea right!,there gonna do the Elvis thing to him,,

I remember walking down the beach in san fransico on twilite evening,,,it was cold a little windy and the fog rolling in I was driving my saab then,,alone living in my car then,parked and started walking down the beach,likeing the fog and wind stoned,a little ,,serious heart broken,in a bad way you could say,,verry depressed,, and I saw ahead this REALLY INCREDIBLY BEATIFULL WOMEN walking toward me, and I caught this voice in the wind,,,"HELLOW","HELLOW,i SAID,,,"WHO ARE YOU?,SHE SAID,JUST IN CLEAR VISION NOW i SAID "i'M THE oNE",,,SHE ALMOST BROKE DOWN AND CRYED RIGHT IN FROUNT OF ME ,SHE BARLY MADE IT BY ME,,KINDA CHOKED UP,,AND SHE SAID"hO MY GOD KEVIN i'M SO SORRY" AND SHE PASSED BY ME,WE SMILED AT EACH OTHER,SMEONE KNEW ME AT LEAST,,A LITTLE BETTER NOW, ,,,

FAME IS hard,,THIS KIND OF FAME IS ALMOST IMPOSSABLE,,IF YOU WERNT ME YOU WOULDNT MAKE IT AS ME ,,,WHENS IT GONNA BREAK,WHEN DO i GET MONEY TO BUY JENNIFER DINNER,AND WHEN IS THERE A HOME IN THIS SOMEHOW AND REALLY,,,,RICH,LIKE REALLY RICH,LIKE ,,,WOW REALLY,,OH i'M JUST A SUCKER,,NO THOIES ARE MY SLASH MARKS IN THE SKY,AND NO ENTERTAINER EVER IN HISTORY HAS EVER GOTTEN A 'BAT SIGNAL!""""yes"break on through to the other side"""thanks coffi shop[ back ground!!!) good one,,,,,

dont go crazy on us now man))))

it's real;ly hard,just pratce alone ,just keep practicing,writ incredibal songs,blow there mind,prove it to them,,,I think I finished "match box of butterfly wings""and you can see she's inbetween every line""Kevin O'connell",,,it's beatifull they that lisithen got to here it I asume this music and practice sessions dont go un recorded,,hmmmm.think about that for awhile,,how much privesy do I have left ,,,constantly watching me,,,"somtings wrong with kevin"""warning,,,wake up sweety,,,,it's a hard place to be in let me tell you,it's not that critical as it used to be so,,,kepp worrying I need money for a verry important dinner date,,,

peace in every one gotta go enjoy this beatifull day,,,,,she always on my mind 

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and you wont wreak my life for it!!!ya,know what I mean

hey good news,a basket just got finished today, it's a cool one it involves your broken snow border kids,who see in me that life is'nt over,I was thirty six years old,,permenently disabled,whooo!so They see I still have a life and everything and now the court showed me some compasion and let me keep my medical marjuand percrption ,cool so k- ,s mountain is getting cooler,thers a club now,,ya see where I'm going with this ,thats your kids not doped forever on percription drugs,,lot of people do that here,wham ,done,your not done I got like twenty broken bones and I'm walking around,so thats a push foward for califonia they say ok,lot of proof though to show I'm for real broken,

so my fan base has been waiting for this moment ,there ,good job,noting beats nine to five,at work not sking,plumer fifteen years like crawling under houses building our ski resorts,in thirty feet of snow,I disighned and enginered and installed the plumbing at the sentinals,with ,,barly an aprentice,sort  a except for one ,eric,beach,he was responsibal,smart,,,so anyway,thirty feet of snow man,like two hours of shoviling snow just to  get into the building your working on,,for real and tire chines and ya cant shut off the work van because you'll never get it started again,my abs glus froze solid,really cold,

som I'm officaly asking k-love to show some apreaction for that,,,my birthday is in june secod,I'll be here,june I can play in the parks again, lot more sociabal in the summer ya know "livings easy" well a little better I can hike at desolation wilderness still then in the sumer,yea,.

so it's a much cooler place k- monttain,that was a good basket a good plane that worked like a charm,when I first moved here there was no medical marjuana compasion,now ther is, it's much tighter restricions,but it's there,so you should maybe get some REAL TORISUM UP HERE,CAUSE KEVINS WANT TO SHOW HIS COMPASION,,,,,THATS FOR REAL EVERY ONE ,DOWN THE ROAD A PEICE YOU CAN SEE THIS PLAN E UNFOLDING,this is just one town,it's hard because I'm thinking countrys,verbal contumplation lears faster and better,for me anyway,for everyone,,so this is just tahoe,,my fan base ,,plans(where thinking billions here)they know what there doing ,cell phones and the internet,they decided it would be me,,not me!!,so they know who maney people would close a town,theres like nine billion people know about,k or kevin,or o,or blue or,agent k,or ect ect,kevin five,little hog,boots,from buildinmg carnival rides wearting my mocassan boots,fring and everything,better for spider man,climing steel guriders,but drop one and by,by,foot,,so boots,a little off every one is sorta a little off somewhere in themselfs,s

see everyone thats AUTO RANK,,,,,KZAR,MAN,,, IT MUST BE THERE PLAN i JUST HAD TO STAY ALIVE,and keep playing,,,

so n0ow probation is just an appontment ever so offten and I'm not doing anything the court dosent know about,,,I DONT DRINK!!!!it the ruin of every rock star, I used to ask myself oh shhh,I lost it,mid streem,I think I need reading glasses?hmmforty five years old in june,but they say I look thirtyfive,it reall runs in the family my dad looks good still to,and my brither and the women live into there late ninteys,

ho twenty thousand mega points for comander and chieff mr.Obama,,thats cool revoultionary,taking witht russia about nuclear wepons,,thats big everyone,thats NEVER BEEN!!!!it is now,,,,yipi thats negotiations not cold war,,, so see how(no braging just tellin ya) I realized that russain diplomats had a thing for great musicains,they know about rock,and fame of corse,,so whos this"one" so a foothold,,this is me doin this for real!,then hey peace and love man,and I begun explaining that we all hqave chioldren and no god or  alla or hinduisum,want or belives that we should destroy our self off the face of the earth,,NO GOD!!it jsut couldnt be,,so president Obama got elected,yipi thats the right direction,americain,chicago exposed to rural america and bluus and jazz,and heyWOULDENT WE BE GREAT FRIENDS,SOME GREAT THINGS IN COMMON,,AND LET ME GET THIS ALL CLEANED UP POLITICAL FOR BETTER TRUST AND RELATIONSHIIPS,,i CONCSIOUSLY DID THIS,,IT'S A LITTLE OVER WHELMING SOMETIMES,,,SO OF CORSE THERES KEVIN O'CONNELL INVOLVED IN IT WITH billions of fans!!!!,,so I'll jump in the arenan if theres help to be found through me ya see thats the way to as,,,,ask,,,ask,dont tell, ask,a fan base to do somting,they can slam ya back,but not me anymoe as one, they gave me every protection because we see I'm for the right things and ,yea if we dont do somting weher gonna blow ourself into outerspace,,yea,no thake you,,see the plan see how I did that now president Obama is getting better friens with russia,,,three,you see three thats my theroy the bigest only to be able to lower the supply for real way back wen I was talikng about lossing nuke numbers at the same time,but the more countries the times ten thousands harder to do,hold on to it,I'm explaning the basket how it gotweaved,teaching negotiations,,,, s

so friends discusing no nukes ,,oh the last item is our next page I read it!!!!,,it's China sighning our nuclear treaty,act,,,it's there we have to show them what benifit it is financialy and socialy to agree with us,thats everyone now,,just three then teraticly it's possable to get down to three wepons only,,,it's gonna be we see the sence in finally

I gotta go sdo torisum hu  up here,!!!!!! come on summer x-borders dont let me down,,ps.I'm workin on a full on scate park up here like the ones in the vally,,,push,push,bike paths cheeper than pored sidwalks,,,,,,they need bike paths ,,get by code,ok.,forest servis less destruction as well,cheeper asphalt,than concreat,,,,rattiling on,but I'm not reallyjust giving my time to try to explain,,,the k-zar thing I only talk about ti to get everyone on the same page,,,how much a bennifit I am,there like "kevin your worth a lot of frekin money,,,, yea ,,I belive that,,,"you owe it to the people where so happy you coluld all be here"...

see peace for the other side of the coin thanks for the compasion heres some back,,in torisum I'll ask them,just did billions of people,,like tens of thousands per min.thers all kinds of ways to look as a goast or vidio tape it or print it, most likely,,,yea gotta go I did meet this twenty year old with my injuries,,so you still ahve a life I couldnt walk a block when I got hurt,now ten miles easy,,peace everyone,,good job every one!!!!!!!!!thanks

Posted by planetyoukevin at 5:55 PM EDT
Updated: Thursday, 2 April 2009 5:57 PM EDT
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