Now Playing: how I woke up this morning
verry alone,in this little cheep motell room in the sierras,I'm from marin,an hour from the beaqch and an hour from san fransico,I had a life a wife/sister a cool apartment with giant redwoods two feet from my door I made like more than a thousand dollers a week and paid six hundred dollers a week in taxes.I took amy out to dinner three nights a week,I was prestigious in my company,verry valueable,free gas a company truck,free cell phone boss paid all my bills,cash anytime I wanted it,,,,take my girl on really cool vacations,I HAD A LIFE!,,,
now here I am in this little cheep motell room ,,,alone,super freakin famous,almost cant go outside anymore,alone,,sort of theres she that loves me,why women dont even try????keep telling myself it's real,try to disprove,if I cant then it's real, my thoughts started to become overwhelming,,music,music,so I put on "close to the eadge" "YES" the begining where Steve Howe is tuning up doing harmonics, mellow kevin,slow down,she caught me just in the nick of time thinking about my fish tank and what I should do to it,lucky theres you,ther is you,no maybe I'm crazy how could A movie star of jennifers degree love ME? theres lots of valadation for me,it's a hard place to be,I've never come across anyone that afected me like jennifer,not befor and not since,what was I missing in life ,a love like that is what!!!.
theres a vidio on vh1,,that makes it ok to wait forever,"how much time to get a love like that?",,I think if I was wrong she would outright say it, instead I get the opisit,,,that was love /is ,somting I've never felt befor,no other movie star dose that to me only she it's not just infacuation,it's verry not like me to fall for a movie star,because I know about probaganda and fans and stalkers and tabloids,it might seem like I'm riding her fame for more fame it's not a good thing to use someone as a steping stone,,a starter wife,theres lots of pit falls there,no it's not like me to fall into that!
but,but,but, I've never felt anything like she before,never been so honered by a women before,,,
so unless I find that again,I'll be waiting for my dream girl,just to beatifull to belive shes with me!".
so I'm practising night and day and it's getting more like progresive rock to stevi ray leads and songs,just imagine kevin in that song "close to the eadge?thats where I really put myself thats what I imagine a manster band like yes,like led zepplin ,,,,I am there musicly and then some ,even at "yes" heres a tast of some of my new stuff written recently or still working on,,one for marin
"China camp"
playing china camp a half a life time latter
looks like I'm playing china camp a half a life time latter
look who I found
fresh back from the east
still playing
lisithen
home again
with an expresion I knew I'd begin
do this to me
(carnival anouncer) all phycosises directed at the man with the guitar
the attention
the devoation.
looks like I'm playing china camp again
a half a life time latter.
I'm still working on it, kinda country "tommey" like
heres another not quite shure if I'll use it dont want anyone to think I have an aditude,but it's all true to life,trying to take you all there.
sombody called me god this morning
I just bowed and walked away
sombody called me god this morning
I just bowed and walked away
I was standing on the street corner and I heard someone call my name
sometimes I cant remember,that everyone out here knows my name
sombody called me god this morning I just bowed and walked away
I was rollin down the free way,and somebody passed me by and said HEY! K
SOMEBODY CALLED ME GOD THIS MORNING
it has smokin lead it's kinda like "Tin pan alley" "Stevi ray Vaughn"
it's hard'it's so hard,this what I'm doing,you cant even begin to imagine what it's like to keep it all togeather,keep your head on stright ,,it kills them all what I'm going through,,,it killed "John Polack"god rest his soul,and hendrix it kills"theres to much confusion,I cant get no relife" where is reality where is this lover to save my soul where is it ALL,so close YOU CAN ALMOST TASTE IT,,,but ya cant!!!!!!!!!BIG FAME LIKE NOONE EVER BEFORE,ALMOST BUT YA CANT,,,WAIT,,,WAIT,WAIT WILL SHE DATE SOMEONE IN TROUBLE,,WHY WOULD SHE,SOMEONE DISABLED,WHY WOULD SHE,ME,,REALLY ME,WE KNOW EACH OTHER REALLY WELL FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND A GIFT BEYOND BELIVING,
MIKE GUNNING HAS SAVED MY LIFE QUITE A FEW TIMES,MY FRIEND MY ENTIRE LIFE,MOSTLY FROM ALCAHOL POISINING,SEGREMS SEVEN ONE TIME,FOUND ME PASSED OUT ON THE TRAIL OVER THE HILL TO MY HOUSE,NEVER MADE IT HOME,AND THERES MIKE EARLY IN THE MORNING SHAKING ME "GET UP KEVIN!" A COUPPLE TIMES THAT NIGHT WAS GIN A HALF GALLON THE ENTIRE THING JUST BETQWEEN ME AND MIKE,i WAS ON A SERIOUS MISSION TO LEAVE,IF YA KNOW WHAT i MEAN,YEA MIKE GUNNING HITCHIKED WITH ME,IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT,,,MIKE IS A BIG REASON WHY i'M STILL ALIVE,,,
IT WAS MIKE THAT TOLD ME TO" GET UP FROM UNDER THAT FREWWAY OVERPASS YOUR SLEAPING UNDER AND GET A JOB AT THE CARNIVAL,"YOUR NOT GONNA MAKE IT UNDER HERE KEVIN!" "THE CARNIVALS IN TOWN GO GET A JOB ,THEY SAID THEY WOULD HIRE YOU"THAT WAS THE FORTH OF JULY FAIR IN SAN RAFAELL C.A."WILL YOU TRAVEL?" YES, SO i GOT ON ONJ THE "TILT A WHIRL" ALL US STEEL ONE OF THE HARDEST RIDES TO BUILD WE CALL IT AN OFF TRUCK RIDE,LIFT IT OFF THE TRUCK AND PUT IT TOGEATHER ON THE GROUND,NO HYDROLICS JUST YOUR ARMS,US STEEL PAINTED RED WHITE AND BLUE,THE BIKERS FAvorite ride,they allways used to ask me to SPIN there old ladies,we call that clutching the ride and ya could get decked for it,the brass bushing your wearing away cost a few hundred dollers,,,but it's the ANGELS,so OK,,,it//they saved my frekin life thoes carnies,good hard work ethics,some kind of job skill they save a lot of kids like me then,saved from suiside,a family you can lift steel your worth somting,you can barker a buck from someone,your worth somting,we all watch out for each other in a way, the bikers in Corning c.a. also saved my ass,a few times,I wont forget it ,EVER! I tell all my kids,these things(the god father to millions of children) there is a place for everyone ya just gotta find it,,
it's quite a life it's a real benifit to share it with everyone,it's REAL AMERICANA!!!,not maney people brave enough to travel like that,it's not,,,brave enough,, tanasity is fear with no choise"it dosent happen verry offten,and live to tell the tale,,
to come up from the street like I have,I walked out my parents door after a fight with my7 step father who was drunk at seventeen years old,with no money,no wallet,no I.D.,on idea of get a job,no 0ne taught me anything,the police told me I had two choises,I could go to an orphanage till I was eighteen or I could just walk away,I walked away, at some point through teenage alcahiolisum I got a job as a dish washer at denneys,then the carnival then laberor,then the carnival again,then construction,then the carnival again then an aprentise electrician job the an aprentise plumber job then a plumbing aprentiship(while never giving up obn my guitar) then jorneyman plumber,then always the boss or I dont take the job,then plumbing division supervisor,then break my neck twice at work,the first time I was drilling out a house boat in salsalito c.a. 2/9,16 big holes with a milwakey hole hog,like a right angel drill,strong enough to break youtr arm!!!,i was down on one knee,drilling and the drill bit hit a nail and I was to tired to do what I was doing,,,emergency calls all night! my neck tryed to take the blow when the drill kicked instead of my /broken sholder,it snaped like nine vertabra in exactly half,frount to back,then Iaftyer a lot of valumes,mothers little helper ,they where tring to get my mussels to relax they all snaped,I couldnt strech my arms in frount of me,wouldnt bend at the elbow,,,carear OVER!!right thern and there,snap my mind,snap I'm gonna lose my girlfriend,I cant work, but I dont give up,,I tryed to go back to work here in tahoe plumbing "kirkwood "ski resort in thirty feet of snow,,foolish workaholic,,I went to a job in kings beach and broke my neck again,hit my head on the header of a door,jamed my allready broken neck backwards,knocked myself out shatered two teeth I hit my head so hard,cracked my skull,I woke up having a seizer,shaking, spiting out peices of my teeth, I got up (a frekin mirical) but I dont give up'
I dont give up!!I started pounding my legendation and my guitar playing,drove across the country and played my guitar at every freakin truck stop in the country,,I dont think I missed one!!!!,I kept traviling playing guitar for my likfe,I played in Burlington Vermont,at the park"""LISITHEN TO WHAT i CAN DO VERMONT"theyn triped on it I got filmed on a t.v. camera,live I think,someone shared it with the world,I think,,,,,,,thank you STEVE,THANK YOU STEVE,THANK YOU STEVE<<<<
that really needed to happen to me ,one good god dam thing,thank you steve he dose clean water documentrys with federal funding,I told hiom he could use my music for background music in his films,did he I dont know,
I dont give up!!!!!!!! so thoes are good traites that might make a movie star fall for me,dont ya think,kevin loves her, she has saved my life also maney times.
I must admit I'm a little scared I didnt think I'd get this famous and still be poor,,,shaken but not stired!!!yea shaken,,, so I just try to keep my head on stright,and wait,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, and just stay me that atracted SHE!
yes ,god bless mike gunning,I hope the fames not screwin ya up mike,I have to have a real friend,for my own sanity they say you dont need my phone number,thats meaning a good thing,I'll be around.
peace in everyone,,I'll be around.
oh have ya fixed Darfur YET!!!!!!! no whats the delay???????? it gets the tide from me,go home and close the door cant tell if it's day or night.peace world get it togeather,,for our kids,we all have them!!!!!
